Yeah, how's about 10 inches of it! Woo! I am in love with snow....it's official! I will marry it. Yep. No, I don't love it THAT much but I really do like it a whole lot. I'm so happy we got so much. I was able to go sledding yesterday and today, even though I was by myself and I was sick. The sick part was not so good because my nose was running like crazy and I couldn't breathe. But other than that it was great! Well, enough about that...
9 DAYS! Count em niiiiiiiiiiiiine until Argentina. Holy shnikees! Well pretty much 8 now...A week from tomorrow, I will fly down to Tampa and we will leave for the wonderful, hot, Argentinian summer on Tuesday! Oh it's going to be fantastic! I'm actually excited to go onto campus again. Probably because I am not going to go to class; I am going to go on a missions trip...wahoo!!! AND when we get back I get to see my lovely Karo, whom I miss like crazy. I am just so excited of almost 2 weeks straight of serving God as hard as I can and watching Him work.
Christmas is only a few days away. Praise the LORD for sending His Son to earth for us! And I'm so excited to give my family their presents. I love watching people open gifts that I got for them. And my sister and her hubby will be here. It really is a great time of year!
If you read this, and you think of it, please pray for my friend from school, Alyssa McLanahan. A couple months ago, she had a seizure. She had all sorts of tests done and the doctors determined that she had a brain tumor. Alyssa had to leave school and go home to have more tests and to figure out what they were going to do. She just had brain surgery on Monday and was doing well. But a couple days ago she started having lots of swelling on her brain and she had 6 more seizures. I haven't really heard a definite update yet, but I know that she would appreciate our prayers as her body tried to recover. Thanks!
...until next time...
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Getting anxious...
I can barely wrap my mind around the fact that I will be going to Argentina in 15 days. It seems like yesterday it was a long 9 months away that we were going and there was PLENTY of time. It didn't actually seem real that I would be for real going on this trip. But it is real. And it is in 15 very short, very busy days. I've been praying that God will use me and change me in Argentina. And I don't like change. But change is what everyone needs to be more Christ-like. I don't even know...I can't think right now because I have too many things going through my head so I better just stop writing. Yes, I am very anxious about this trip, but I am also very very very excited. I love to travel and experience new places and I love seeing what God will do through people who are willing to be used by Him wherever He sends them! Pray for me that I will be a vessel completely available for His use!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Happy THANKSgiving!!!
First, I would like to say that white glove went great. We got everything spic and span clean waaaaay before our time was up! And yes, we dressed up weird. You can't really see what I was we were wearing but here is a picture....
Second, I am HOME! I have been home since Saturday and it's just fantastic. There's nothing like being "home". I still never heard from the school, so I'm assuming that I didn't get the job. It will be slightly annoying if I get back to school and then hear back that I did get it, just because of timing and traveling and stuff.
Third, it's THANKSgiving! I like Thanksgiving for many reasons. Number 1 is spending time with family. Even though some of my extended family is crazy and a little annoying, it's still nice to catch up once in a while. Number 2 is the fooooooood. Yay food! And I think that's all I need to say about that! :)
'What am I thankful for?', you may be wondering...
my parents
my sister and her husband
my dog
my car
my salvation
Clearwater CC
abilities God has given me (piano, soccer, running, etc.)
warm clothes
a home
godly friends
laughter
my grandparents
learning experiences
God's grace over and over and over again!
my church
my church family
music
and there's probably so much more I am forgetting but it's too late for this!!!!
*Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! His love endures forever!*
...until next time...
Second, I am HOME! I have been home since Saturday and it's just fantastic. There's nothing like being "home". I still never heard from the school, so I'm assuming that I didn't get the job. It will be slightly annoying if I get back to school and then hear back that I did get it, just because of timing and traveling and stuff.
Third, it's THANKSgiving! I like Thanksgiving for many reasons. Number 1 is spending time with family. Even though some of my extended family is crazy and a little annoying, it's still nice to catch up once in a while. Number 2 is the fooooooood. Yay food! And I think that's all I need to say about that! :)
'What am I thankful for?', you may be wondering...
my parents
my sister and her husband
my dog
my car
my salvation
Clearwater CC
abilities God has given me (piano, soccer, running, etc.)
warm clothes
a home
godly friends
laughter
my grandparents
learning experiences
God's grace over and over and over again!
my church
my church family
music
and there's probably so much more I am forgetting but it's too late for this!!!!
*Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! His love endures forever!*
...until next time...
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Rollercoaster Emotions
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
I thought that verse would be an appropriate thought to start out with. I need the constant reminder that God is in control and He knows the plans He has for me. His plan for me is perfect, because He is perfect. I don't know why I continually doubt that. It seems like every time that concept finally gets through my thick head, another situation comes up where I start doubting.
I still haven't heard about the job. I had my interview almost 2 weeks ago. I was told that I would hear yes or no within a week. I get very restless when I am given a time period that something will happen in and then it doesn't. If I don't get a call tomorrow, I will be calling the school on Friday morning to find out what the deal is. I have to know by Friday at the latest because I am going home Saturday and I need to know if I need to bring all sorts of stuff home, or leave it all here and bring even more back for an apartment and stuff. This is just the type of situation that tries my patience. I'm always told never to pray for patience because the Lord will give you situations in which you will learn it....I guess it's true.
In other news, tomorrow is White Glove....my LAST ONE! Praise the Lord!!! I actually like White Glove. It means that everything is sparkling clean and neat. And the process is fun too. We usually dress up and do crazy stuff while cleaning. We listen to Christmas music and Disney music and sing ridiculously loud. It's great! Haha here's a couple pictures of the usual happenings :) ......
White Glove Fall 2007
White Glove Spring 2008....haaaaaa
White Glove 2006...haha underwear heads
In other otherrrr news, I have 2 days left of teaching. I have 7 days left of college. Where oh where did these last 4 and 1/2 years run off to? I am kind of sad to leave all my kids that I have been teaching since August. Even though they make me so very tired, I love them so much. I am going to miss the other PE teachers I work with. Even though I am hating dorm life right now, I know I will probably miss it eventually. I am pretty much a rollercoaster of emotions recently. The thing I will miss the most are the people here. There are probably some people that I will never see again (until Heaven, that is). That just makes me so sad. But I am trying to rest in the hope and peace of the Lord to help me through. Don't get me wrong, I am so very excited to graduate and finally move on to another stage in my life!! I just get down sometimes thinking about it. I know it will all work out because, as I said before, the Lord has the plans for my life and I need to learn to trust Him fully.
Until next time...
Friday, November 7, 2008
Push 2...
...weeks, that is. (The "push # phrase is a volleyball thing, in case you were wondering haha) I only have 2 weeks left until Thanksgiving break. That in turn means 2 weeks left of student teaching. Where has the stinkin' time gone? Just yesterday, it seems like I was starting my first day of college classes as a freshman. After Thanksgiving, I have exactly 5 days left down here and I most likely won't be doing much teaching. I should be observing and finishing up everything. I can't believe it's almost over. I'm so glad though. It's time to move on. Time to get a "real life" and a "real job".
Speaking of a real job, I had an interview today. It's kind of weird how it worked out and if I end up getting the job, someday I will ask how these people got my name....BUT...on Tuesday, my internship teacher got an email from the principal of Clearwater High School. The email said that they are losing a PE teacher and were wondering if my teacher's intern (me...and they called me by name) would be interested in the position. Of course, I was going to be interested! I had contacted a few schools, but had basically made up my mind to be going home and working at Sam's Club all next semester. I was actually kind of excited about doing that, to be completely honest. But, this email came through and I jumped on the opportunity. I first contacted my parents to make sure this would be even doable. Once I got the go ahead from them, I contacted the assistant principal at the high school and set up an interview time for today at 1:45pm.
That was Wednesday. That meant I had a day and a half basically to get everything ready that I needed for an interview. I needed to write a resume, get my transcripts, get my letters of recommendation, etc. Needless to say the past couple days I have been scrambling around like crazy trying to get all this stuff together. Thankfully, come this morning, I had everything nice and ready, including my spiffy outfit, which, if I may say so myself, was fantastic. :) Haha...oh boy...anyways...I went to the interview.
It went really well, I think. There were 4 people in the interview: the principal, 2 assistant principals, and the athletic director. They were all really really nice and made me feel so comfortable. They had a scripted interview paper with 6 questions on it that they apparently ask to everyone. So they went around and each took 1 or 2 questions. I took my time and answered the best I could. Thankfully, I didn't say anything really dumb! Yessssss! :) They all seemed like they were agreeing with my answers and liking them. (hopefully...lol) I think it went well...but now I have to wait to hear back from them.
I hope they let me know as quick as possible (which I know they will do because the position is for January, which is fast approaching!), because if I get the job, I all of a sudden have to find a place to live down here and all that jazz. One step at a time thought, I guess. I was just so happy to actually have had a school contact me! What a surprise blessing! We'll see if I get the job and then we'll go from there.
In other news, I watched the movie "The Mist" tonight with Milton, Chad, A-mar, Dee, and Breth. It was pretty good. It was kind of supernatural and weird, but not as scary as I thought it would be. It was a little more gory than I normally prefer, but I dealt with it. I didn't like the ending, but how many horror films usually end happily, right?
Tomorrow, I am hopefully going to a US Women's National Soccer Team game in Tampa vs. South Korea. Should be pretty exciting if all the details work out! :)
Well, I guess that's all for now. I took like 2 naps today so I'm not as tired as I would normally be right now. Although, I think I'm getting there quickly! Haha! OLLLLLDDDD LAAAAAADY! Eh, anyways...good night!
Speaking of a real job, I had an interview today. It's kind of weird how it worked out and if I end up getting the job, someday I will ask how these people got my name....BUT...on Tuesday, my internship teacher got an email from the principal of Clearwater High School. The email said that they are losing a PE teacher and were wondering if my teacher's intern (me...and they called me by name) would be interested in the position. Of course, I was going to be interested! I had contacted a few schools, but had basically made up my mind to be going home and working at Sam's Club all next semester. I was actually kind of excited about doing that, to be completely honest. But, this email came through and I jumped on the opportunity. I first contacted my parents to make sure this would be even doable. Once I got the go ahead from them, I contacted the assistant principal at the high school and set up an interview time for today at 1:45pm.
That was Wednesday. That meant I had a day and a half basically to get everything ready that I needed for an interview. I needed to write a resume, get my transcripts, get my letters of recommendation, etc. Needless to say the past couple days I have been scrambling around like crazy trying to get all this stuff together. Thankfully, come this morning, I had everything nice and ready, including my spiffy outfit, which, if I may say so myself, was fantastic. :) Haha...oh boy...anyways...I went to the interview.
It went really well, I think. There were 4 people in the interview: the principal, 2 assistant principals, and the athletic director. They were all really really nice and made me feel so comfortable. They had a scripted interview paper with 6 questions on it that they apparently ask to everyone. So they went around and each took 1 or 2 questions. I took my time and answered the best I could. Thankfully, I didn't say anything really dumb! Yessssss! :) They all seemed like they were agreeing with my answers and liking them. (hopefully...lol) I think it went well...but now I have to wait to hear back from them.
I hope they let me know as quick as possible (which I know they will do because the position is for January, which is fast approaching!), because if I get the job, I all of a sudden have to find a place to live down here and all that jazz. One step at a time thought, I guess. I was just so happy to actually have had a school contact me! What a surprise blessing! We'll see if I get the job and then we'll go from there.
In other news, I watched the movie "The Mist" tonight with Milton, Chad, A-mar, Dee, and Breth. It was pretty good. It was kind of supernatural and weird, but not as scary as I thought it would be. It was a little more gory than I normally prefer, but I dealt with it. I didn't like the ending, but how many horror films usually end happily, right?
Tomorrow, I am hopefully going to a US Women's National Soccer Team game in Tampa vs. South Korea. Should be pretty exciting if all the details work out! :)
Well, I guess that's all for now. I took like 2 naps today so I'm not as tired as I would normally be right now. Although, I think I'm getting there quickly! Haha! OLLLLLDDDD LAAAAAADY! Eh, anyways...good night!
Thursday, September 25, 2008
9th and Final Semester...Lord-Willing :-)
Well, it has come down to this. I know nobody even reads this anymore and that's fine. I never write anymore, so I guess we're even :) This is my last semester at Clearwater. That's a big huge Praise The Lord!!! I can't believe it has been almost 4 and 1/2 years that I have been here. What a huge chunk of my life to have spent in one place. It has absolutely flown. And honestly, as much as I may have complained early on and as much as has not gone "my way", I wouldn't trade this experience for the world. I am so so so very glad that it was in God's plan for me to go to school. I am so blessed to have gone to college and meet the people that I did. I made some of the best friends I've ever had in college and I know those relationships will last a lifetime and beyond. Yeah, so maybe I didn't meet "the guy" here like I thought I would. And maybe I didn't graduate "on time" (in my time frame, that is). And maybe I wasn't the "perfect student". But I know that every experience I have gone through has molded me and made me into the woman God is having me to be.
SOOOO onto lighter topics haha...I am l-o-v-i-n-g my internship. I am teaching elementary P.E. (K-5) and it is so fun. The kids are great (for the most part). I have made a few cry by putting them in time out, but ya gotta do what ya gotta do, right?! Anyways, I have been teaching in the "classroom" (or...field...) now full time for 2 weeks tomorrow. It's harder in some ways than I thought and easier in others. I am struggling to find a job for the Spring. I will probably end up back at home workin at good old Sam's Club until I can find a job for the fall. But, that's good though, because then I can live at home and make some moola/dinero/cash-monies! :) Which will be much needed when I am out on my own. So, for now, I am tired and a little bored every night, which is a nice change from pretty much all the previous semesters up til now! :)
Well, speaking of being tired, I think I am about to go scrub my face, brush my teeth, and hunker down for the night (not necessarily sleep, but read and such)...and yes...it is 7:30pm. Haha...Loser with a capital "L"!!! :)
SOOOO onto lighter topics haha...I am l-o-v-i-n-g my internship. I am teaching elementary P.E. (K-5) and it is so fun. The kids are great (for the most part). I have made a few cry by putting them in time out, but ya gotta do what ya gotta do, right?! Anyways, I have been teaching in the "classroom" (or...field...) now full time for 2 weeks tomorrow. It's harder in some ways than I thought and easier in others. I am struggling to find a job for the Spring. I will probably end up back at home workin at good old Sam's Club until I can find a job for the fall. But, that's good though, because then I can live at home and make some moola/dinero/cash-monies! :) Which will be much needed when I am out on my own. So, for now, I am tired and a little bored every night, which is a nice change from pretty much all the previous semesters up til now! :)
Well, speaking of being tired, I think I am about to go scrub my face, brush my teeth, and hunker down for the night (not necessarily sleep, but read and such)...and yes...it is 7:30pm. Haha...Loser with a capital "L"!!! :)
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Just a Bad Day???
Well, compared to yesterday, I'm a little more calm, cool, and collected. I'm not sure what it was. Maybe it was just a bad day that I was having. I'm in desperate need of thanking God continually for what He has done for me and has given me. That kinda makes all my wants and desires grow dim. It reminds me of the song Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus...
It's just a good reminder that if I am completely focused on Him, I can be free from my worries and cares of earthly things. I could use prayer. Thanks :)
O soul, are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There’s a light for a look at the Savior,
And life more abundant and free!
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.
It's just a good reminder that if I am completely focused on Him, I can be free from my worries and cares of earthly things. I could use prayer. Thanks :)
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
It's Been A While...
Well, this is going to start the same way anyone would start a blog after a month and a half...
"Wow! It's been a while since I've been on here!" There. I said it! Yes, life has continued since I've been home from school. I am working at Sam's Club again this summer. It is turning out to not be as dull and monotonous as I remember last summer being. But, I guess we are not even to the end of June, so we'll see! I have been playing soccer on a team in an adult co-ed league and it's really fun. I am on a team with a few friends from high school so it's always a fun time.
The real reason I decided to write today, other than I have the day off, was because I've been very bummed the last few days. I'm probably going to write some things that are irrational, but I will try to be as rational as I can. I have been trying to figure out, over the past few weeks, what is wrong with me. Now, I know, God makes us in His image and He has a plan for our lives and ultimately it is for His glory. But, sometimes I feel (and I know the word "feel" is somewhat obscure and irrational but stick with me) that there must be something about me that good Christian guys don't like or aren't attracted to. I just get so confused. I try to live every day to please God. I have a good head on my shoulders. I love to get involved in my church and community. I think I have a fun personality. I know I'm not a super-model and I don't want to be one, but I do take good care of my body by exercising regularly. We all have our faults and mine are pretty big sometimes, but I just don't get it. Again, I KNOW God has a plan, but in my finite mind, it doesn't make sense. I just get so sad sometimes because I desire so much to have that close, personal relationship with a husband, one that God has obviously created. I want to be a wife. I want to be a mom. And I know God knows the desires of my heart. I believe He's the one that put those desires there. It's just really hard waiting. And Satan will do his best to get me down, and in all honesty, I'm letting him do a pretty good job so far this summer. I don't even know how to express what I am feeling and thinking right now. I always thought it would be like go to college, meet someone, fall in love, get married, have babies, grow old together...you know, the "normal" stuff. God has amazing plans for my life, I've known that for a few years now. Maybe that doesn't involve a man. That makes me so so so very sad, but I know that if that's God's plan, that is going to have to be my plan too. Maybe I will be more effective doing God's work single, than with a boyfriend or husband. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am struggling with that idea and I am praying daily for God to either grant me the desires of my heart, or to change my desires to meet His. I want my desires for my life to match God's. That is what I want. It's just hard. And if you're reading this, you probably know what I mean. I'm not trying to complain, I'm just saying. I should probably stop typing now since I think I'm starting to not make any sense. :-P
Well, I'm off to.....do nothing! :)
"Wow! It's been a while since I've been on here!" There. I said it! Yes, life has continued since I've been home from school. I am working at Sam's Club again this summer. It is turning out to not be as dull and monotonous as I remember last summer being. But, I guess we are not even to the end of June, so we'll see! I have been playing soccer on a team in an adult co-ed league and it's really fun. I am on a team with a few friends from high school so it's always a fun time.
The real reason I decided to write today, other than I have the day off, was because I've been very bummed the last few days. I'm probably going to write some things that are irrational, but I will try to be as rational as I can. I have been trying to figure out, over the past few weeks, what is wrong with me. Now, I know, God makes us in His image and He has a plan for our lives and ultimately it is for His glory. But, sometimes I feel (and I know the word "feel" is somewhat obscure and irrational but stick with me) that there must be something about me that good Christian guys don't like or aren't attracted to. I just get so confused. I try to live every day to please God. I have a good head on my shoulders. I love to get involved in my church and community. I think I have a fun personality. I know I'm not a super-model and I don't want to be one, but I do take good care of my body by exercising regularly. We all have our faults and mine are pretty big sometimes, but I just don't get it. Again, I KNOW God has a plan, but in my finite mind, it doesn't make sense. I just get so sad sometimes because I desire so much to have that close, personal relationship with a husband, one that God has obviously created. I want to be a wife. I want to be a mom. And I know God knows the desires of my heart. I believe He's the one that put those desires there. It's just really hard waiting. And Satan will do his best to get me down, and in all honesty, I'm letting him do a pretty good job so far this summer. I don't even know how to express what I am feeling and thinking right now. I always thought it would be like go to college, meet someone, fall in love, get married, have babies, grow old together...you know, the "normal" stuff. God has amazing plans for my life, I've known that for a few years now. Maybe that doesn't involve a man. That makes me so so so very sad, but I know that if that's God's plan, that is going to have to be my plan too. Maybe I will be more effective doing God's work single, than with a boyfriend or husband. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am struggling with that idea and I am praying daily for God to either grant me the desires of my heart, or to change my desires to meet His. I want my desires for my life to match God's. That is what I want. It's just hard. And if you're reading this, you probably know what I mean. I'm not trying to complain, I'm just saying. I should probably stop typing now since I think I'm starting to not make any sense. :-P
Well, I'm off to.....do nothing! :)
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Home :-)
Yes, I am home! I feel like it's bittersweet to be home though. I honestly miss Florida and the people that go along with it more than I ever have before. It's weird because I thought I wanted to leave so bad. Ever since the day before I left I have been feeling like I only half wanted to leave. But, I am loving being home. It's fabulous! I just started realizing how busy I think my summer is actually going to be though! I am starting work on Wednesday. Plus, I usually go with my mom's class on their field trips. Plus I am now on a summer league soccer team. Plus, I am trying to find at job for January. Plus, I am going on a missions trip with my church in July. Plus, I need to fit my running in there sometime if I don't want to become a lazy fatty! SOOOO....yeah.
But I am excited about everything that is going on this summer. This summer was supposed to be my first summer out of college. But, as that has changed, I am so happy I have another "college summer" for God to use me and to teach me. I'm not totally in the "loop" about this missions trip with my church to NH, but I am so pumped about it! I know kind of what we will be doing but I just got home, so hopefully I will know more soon.
PLUS!!! This winter I am going to Argentina on a missions trip with my school. Oh my I am excited beyond belief! It's December 30-January 12. We are going to Pilar, Argentina and we will be doing canvassing, VBS, music, sports, and probably much more! I have been sending out support letters, but no money has come in yet. I know the LORD will provide and I need to keep praying and asking Him, believing that the money will come in. I need $1800 so that is what I am praying for specifically. I am praying that God burdens the peoples' hearts that I send my letters to, to give. It is such a good cause to give a small amount of money to possibly lead to the security of a person's eternity with Christ! I am also praying that I have the right attitude as I go.
Well, it's late and I have to get up and go for my drug test for Sam's Club in the morning....so goodnight!
But I am excited about everything that is going on this summer. This summer was supposed to be my first summer out of college. But, as that has changed, I am so happy I have another "college summer" for God to use me and to teach me. I'm not totally in the "loop" about this missions trip with my church to NH, but I am so pumped about it! I know kind of what we will be doing but I just got home, so hopefully I will know more soon.
PLUS!!! This winter I am going to Argentina on a missions trip with my school. Oh my I am excited beyond belief! It's December 30-January 12. We are going to Pilar, Argentina and we will be doing canvassing, VBS, music, sports, and probably much more! I have been sending out support letters, but no money has come in yet. I know the LORD will provide and I need to keep praying and asking Him, believing that the money will come in. I need $1800 so that is what I am praying for specifically. I am praying that God burdens the peoples' hearts that I send my letters to, to give. It is such a good cause to give a small amount of money to possibly lead to the security of a person's eternity with Christ! I am also praying that I have the right attitude as I go.
Well, it's late and I have to get up and go for my drug test for Sam's Club in the morning....so goodnight!
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Le Masquerade
Jr/Sr was amazing! :) The theme was Masquerade. It was so fun! As I said before, I went with my friends Kristin and Susan. It was so nice to just be able to have a relaxing night with the girls and not have to worry about being awkward with a date or something. Plus, nobody else sat with us 3 at our 8 person table, so we were able to talk about whatever we wanted and be dumb because we didn't have anyone else there! Haha it was fun. Well, I don't really feel like writing out every single thing we did, so I will tell about the night through a couple of the many many many pictures :) ....
This is me and my roommate, Lauren, before I left
The tables were so pretty!
Kris and myself enjoying the strawberries...
Me, Kris, and Suz
MASQUERADE!!!
the food...it was ok...
I think I had the hottest dates there!
full length but a little blurry
"non-CCC approved"....scandalous, i know haha!
So that's that...and today I am dead tired! ahhhh!!! :O
This week is finals and then HOOOOOOOME!!!!!!!!!!!
This is me and my roommate, Lauren, before I left
The tables were so pretty!
Kris and myself enjoying the strawberries...
Me, Kris, and Suz
MASQUERADE!!!
the food...it was ok...
I think I had the hottest dates there!
full length but a little blurry
"non-CCC approved"....scandalous, i know haha!
So that's that...and today I am dead tired! ahhhh!!! :O
This week is finals and then HOOOOOOOME!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, April 25, 2008
7
7!!!!!!!!!
If you didn't guess, that's the number of days until I leave! Woohoo! I have already put a suitcase and a duffel bag both full of clothes in my car. I figured that if I know I'm not going to wear them, I might as well not even keep them in my room, ya know!? And it helped with cleaning in White Glove. Speaking of...it went great! I kinda cut up my fingers and knees from being down scrubbing the bathroom floor, but it was worth it because I didn't get called back in, which means no fines! Plus, the unit is so sparkling clean now! It's fantastic!
Today is the last day of classes. I can't even believe it! It's wonderful! I don't even mind actually going to class today because it's the last one. Haha! Plus I know that after class I get to go get my nails done and have one of the girls do my hair and get all dressed up for Jr/Sr. I am so excited! I am going with Kristin and Susan and I can't wait! wooohooooooo! :)
Ok I better go. It's almost time for class and I don't want to be late on my last day!
If you didn't guess, that's the number of days until I leave! Woohoo! I have already put a suitcase and a duffel bag both full of clothes in my car. I figured that if I know I'm not going to wear them, I might as well not even keep them in my room, ya know!? And it helped with cleaning in White Glove. Speaking of...it went great! I kinda cut up my fingers and knees from being down scrubbing the bathroom floor, but it was worth it because I didn't get called back in, which means no fines! Plus, the unit is so sparkling clean now! It's fantastic!
Today is the last day of classes. I can't even believe it! It's wonderful! I don't even mind actually going to class today because it's the last one. Haha! Plus I know that after class I get to go get my nails done and have one of the girls do my hair and get all dressed up for Jr/Sr. I am so excited! I am going with Kristin and Susan and I can't wait! wooohooooooo! :)
Ok I better go. It's almost time for class and I don't want to be late on my last day!
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Wow
This is just going to be a random thoughts post...
10 days until my mom is here and we start our road trip home. I am excited beyond belief.
I am starving!!! Ok not starving, but really really hungry!
As an update on my last post...I'm pretty much over it. I have wasted too much time and energy on it and it is not worth it. In the grand scheme of life and eternity, it is not worth spending my time being worried about "friendships" that turn out to be meaningless when I should be out telling others about God and how real He is to me!
Following my last point...there are a lot of good changes happening in my life and heart. :)
I really enjoyed chapel today.
I have to start cleaning for white glove tonight.
Jr/Sr is on Friday and I am wicked excited!! I am going with some of my girl friends and it is going to be so much fun! I will definitely be taking lots of pictures and hopefully put some up here! I found the most beautiful dress that I have ever had for it, which might seem dumb, but I've never had a dress that I absolutely love and that is so pretty. AND...I got it for $20! That's the best part!! :)
I miss my friends. (I think I say that every time! Haha!)
Did I mention that I am hungry? :P
I love my roommates. They are the best.
I think that's it...I'm so hungry I can't even think haha! Oh boy lunch is in T-25 minutes woohoo!
10 days until my mom is here and we start our road trip home. I am excited beyond belief.
I am starving!!! Ok not starving, but really really hungry!
As an update on my last post...I'm pretty much over it. I have wasted too much time and energy on it and it is not worth it. In the grand scheme of life and eternity, it is not worth spending my time being worried about "friendships" that turn out to be meaningless when I should be out telling others about God and how real He is to me!
Following my last point...there are a lot of good changes happening in my life and heart. :)
I really enjoyed chapel today.
I have to start cleaning for white glove tonight.
Jr/Sr is on Friday and I am wicked excited!! I am going with some of my girl friends and it is going to be so much fun! I will definitely be taking lots of pictures and hopefully put some up here! I found the most beautiful dress that I have ever had for it, which might seem dumb, but I've never had a dress that I absolutely love and that is so pretty. AND...I got it for $20! That's the best part!! :)
I miss my friends. (I think I say that every time! Haha!)
Did I mention that I am hungry? :P
I love my roommates. They are the best.
I think that's it...I'm so hungry I can't even think haha! Oh boy lunch is in T-25 minutes woohoo!
Monday, April 14, 2008
2 in One Day!!!
Now, I know this is very unconventional of me, but I am going to post for the second time in one day. The reason that I'm doing this is only because I feel that I need vent a little bit about something. I don't even know who all reads this and I know it's more than just the one person that comments on here, so I hope if you are reading this that you don't get offended or anything...not that I think anyone would...but whatever!
ANYWAYS, I value my friendships. I am someone who I either take you or leave you. I put a lot of my energy into keeping up the friendships that I hold dear to my heart. Whenever I get a new friend, I am a person who (maybe to my own loss) jumps full force into cultivating a relationship with that person. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I take friendship very seriously. I try my hardest to be someone's friend through the good and the bad.
This leads me to my point. I welcome my friends with open arms to come to me when they are struggling with something in their life. I am always always always willing to offer the best advice that I can and to pray for a friend. I enjoy doing that sort of thing. But, I take it really hard when a "friend" comes running to me only when they are going through something or when their life seems a wreck. Then whenever things get better, I'm no longer needed. I don't like what I have named, "stormy-weather friends". When things get bad they come running to me for help, but when things are good I barely hear from them. It hurts. My heart literally hurts. As I said before, I value relationships so deeply that when someone else doesn't value their friendship with me as much as I do with them, my heart breaks a little.
I'm probably just being selfish, but I felt like I needed to put that out there even if not anyone really reads this. I miss my real friends....I miss those who stick up for me no matter what. I miss those who I don't have to say a word and they already know what I am thinking. I miss that. Desperately.
ANYWAYS, I value my friendships. I am someone who I either take you or leave you. I put a lot of my energy into keeping up the friendships that I hold dear to my heart. Whenever I get a new friend, I am a person who (maybe to my own loss) jumps full force into cultivating a relationship with that person. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I take friendship very seriously. I try my hardest to be someone's friend through the good and the bad.
This leads me to my point. I welcome my friends with open arms to come to me when they are struggling with something in their life. I am always always always willing to offer the best advice that I can and to pray for a friend. I enjoy doing that sort of thing. But, I take it really hard when a "friend" comes running to me only when they are going through something or when their life seems a wreck. Then whenever things get better, I'm no longer needed. I don't like what I have named, "stormy-weather friends". When things get bad they come running to me for help, but when things are good I barely hear from them. It hurts. My heart literally hurts. As I said before, I value relationships so deeply that when someone else doesn't value their friendship with me as much as I do with them, my heart breaks a little.
I'm probably just being selfish, but I felt like I needed to put that out there even if not anyone really reads this. I miss my real friends....I miss those who stick up for me no matter what. I miss those who I don't have to say a word and they already know what I am thinking. I miss that. Desperately.
Ready to Leave
It comes to that point eventually every semester when it's time to be done. Yeah, about March I start getting antsy for the semester to hurry up, but it's always about 2 weeks before the end when I get this little attitude where I get annoyed at everyone and every little thing. I know it is mostly my fault for having an attitude but everyone is getting a little snippy and "attitude-y". I guess it's just that time again! I am so excited that White Glove is next week. I always get excited for white glove because that means that we are leaving soon. Plus, it's like an extremely thorough scouring of this place top to bottom and that's always good! Some people don't think it, but girls can be very messy and dirty...especially 10 girls living together! Oh, I can't forget the official count!!!!....
10 days of classes left! (actually only 6 for me cuz I only go MWF)
16 days til the last day of finals
18 days til i up and leave this place!
wow...I know I say this every time, but I can't believe how fast this is going!!! What a blessing....I am getting excited to get to spend next semester doing my internship, helping out with soccer, and hanging out with Karyn, who I miss sooooo much!!!
Alright, well time to go take a test that I didn't study enough for...joy of all joys! :)
10 days of classes left! (actually only 6 for me cuz I only go MWF)
16 days til the last day of finals
18 days til i up and leave this place!
wow...I know I say this every time, but I can't believe how fast this is going!!! What a blessing....I am getting excited to get to spend next semester doing my internship, helping out with soccer, and hanging out with Karyn, who I miss sooooo much!!!
Alright, well time to go take a test that I didn't study enough for...joy of all joys! :)
Monday, April 7, 2008
Rain, Rain....don't go away...
This will be a short one because I have to go to class in about 10 minutes, but I just wanted to say that I love the rain. Yesterday was a perfectly rainy day. Now, normally I would probably end up complaining about the rain. But, I've been trying to be more positive about things lately that could potentially get me down. It rained all day yesterday, and though that caused my nicely straightened hair to get frizzy, and my feet to be wet, and me to just be cold, I really truly enjoyed the rain. I especially enjoyed it in the afternoon and night. I love taking naps when it is raining. It seems like I sleep so much better. We get so much sun around here, that we surely could have used a nice full day of rain and God provided it! I am happy that I was able to find so much joy in a simple change of weather that God provided. It was a wonderful Lord's Day! :)
In other news, my new pastor and his family and another girl from my church at home are coming to visit the college this week! I am SO excited! I absolutely love those people and I don't even know them extremely well. They are the nicest, most giving people and I am stoked that they are going to be here Wednesday and Thursday!!! I can't wait!
Alright well I have to head to class soon...BOO! Haha, but it's ok because there are only:
25 days until I leave Florida!!!! :)
In other news, my new pastor and his family and another girl from my church at home are coming to visit the college this week! I am SO excited! I absolutely love those people and I don't even know them extremely well. They are the nicest, most giving people and I am stoked that they are going to be here Wednesday and Thursday!!! I can't wait!
Alright well I have to head to class soon...BOO! Haha, but it's ok because there are only:
25 days until I leave Florida!!!! :)
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Love Is In the Air
Not MY air, unfortunately! But, wow, is this the time of year for engagements and weddings or what?! No, I am not complaining about not having a guy. That's not what this is about. It just seems like every time I turn around, someone else is engaged! Or someone is getting married so soon and I didn't even realize it. It's just a crazy time. Like the other night I sat 2 seats down from a girl who got engaged over Spring Break. She had this psycho-ly big wedding planner book and she was showing it to some other girls. It was at that point that I was thankful for my singleness. Planning a wedding seems like more trouble than it's worth. Don't get me wrong, I would love to get married some day. But, I am NOT looking forward to all the stress. Maybe it's just my personality type that I don't really need things to be huge and amazingly perfect that I would go as far as to get all stressed out. But, phew...crazy! Well, I figure I may be going to 1 or 2 weddings over the next couple summers, but thankfully I don't think I will be in any. Any close friends that I have don't even have boyfriends, so we're safe there! So I guess my main point is that people are getting engaged by the thousands here! Haha!
This weekend we had our athletic recruitment days here at college. It was really neat because like 6 or 7 high school seniors came and visited and practiced with us Friday and Saturday. It was really fun to get to know them and to see the potential talent that the team could have next year. I did get really sad on Saturday when we scrimmaged almost full field 9v9. It has really set in that I am not playing soccer next year. I know I will be around and I will be helping out. I will get to spend every day out at practice with the girls and hopefully make a good contribution to the improvement of the team, which don't get me wrong...I am SO excited about. But, coaching and playing are so different. When you're coaching, you can't do a thing about it once it's game time. You have to rely on your players to perform while you want so desperately to be out there and be doing it yourself. Well, I have to be content where I am. God gave me 4 amazing years of relatively healthy college soccer. I have to be thankful to Him for that and now step back and try my best to help those that are coming after me. I know it will be fun. I know it. I am truly excited to get a new perspective on the game and team setting. It's just going to be an adjustment. It's that change thing...the thing none of us really like, but it happens anyways.
Well, I'm about to head to church. YAY! :) I am looking forward to it. I am not looking forward to cleaning and homework after church, but oh well! Here's a reminiscent soccer pic...ahhh the good old days :)
This weekend we had our athletic recruitment days here at college. It was really neat because like 6 or 7 high school seniors came and visited and practiced with us Friday and Saturday. It was really fun to get to know them and to see the potential talent that the team could have next year. I did get really sad on Saturday when we scrimmaged almost full field 9v9. It has really set in that I am not playing soccer next year. I know I will be around and I will be helping out. I will get to spend every day out at practice with the girls and hopefully make a good contribution to the improvement of the team, which don't get me wrong...I am SO excited about. But, coaching and playing are so different. When you're coaching, you can't do a thing about it once it's game time. You have to rely on your players to perform while you want so desperately to be out there and be doing it yourself. Well, I have to be content where I am. God gave me 4 amazing years of relatively healthy college soccer. I have to be thankful to Him for that and now step back and try my best to help those that are coming after me. I know it will be fun. I know it. I am truly excited to get a new perspective on the game and team setting. It's just going to be an adjustment. It's that change thing...the thing none of us really like, but it happens anyways.
Well, I'm about to head to church. YAY! :) I am looking forward to it. I am not looking forward to cleaning and homework after church, but oh well! Here's a reminiscent soccer pic...ahhh the good old days :)
Monday, March 24, 2008
Dried Apples and Gertrude Hawk Chocolate
Days until I leave Florida: 39!
Wow, I can barely believe how fast everything is going. I can't believe it's already almost summer break again. It seems like yesterday was August and I was leaving for school. Time flies when you're...having fun? I don't totally agree with that statement. I say we change it to just "time flies". Period. No matter what you're doing.
Well Spring Break is officially over for me. I have class in about 5 hours. What a bummer! But, it was a good break. I had a great weekend with my family, which included snow, the Carnegie Science Center, and lots of laughter about people in my sister's church choir. It really was fun and I was dreading coming back here. My mom made me dried apples, which are like my absolute favorite!! And she also got me some peanut butter, raspberry, and mint teenie poppers from Gertrude Hawk, which is like the best chocolate! YUM!!! And don't get me wrong, I love the girls in my unit. But, I'm not even that excited about seeing anyone and living with 9 other girls again. I am just so ready to be done with college life. And I know I know I will probably miss it after a while, but December 12th will be the best day of my life so far I think. I will finally be done with all of this!
I have some stuff to do before my class tonight so I'd better go work on that. Back to the grind!
P.S. this is like one the only pictures I took this weekend...i totally forgot to take lots of pictures! aggghhh!! oh well...i love my dad! we are both crazy dorks!! :) This is us squished in the back seat alllllll weekend!!!
Wow, I can barely believe how fast everything is going. I can't believe it's already almost summer break again. It seems like yesterday was August and I was leaving for school. Time flies when you're...having fun? I don't totally agree with that statement. I say we change it to just "time flies". Period. No matter what you're doing.
Well Spring Break is officially over for me. I have class in about 5 hours. What a bummer! But, it was a good break. I had a great weekend with my family, which included snow, the Carnegie Science Center, and lots of laughter about people in my sister's church choir. It really was fun and I was dreading coming back here. My mom made me dried apples, which are like my absolute favorite!! And she also got me some peanut butter, raspberry, and mint teenie poppers from Gertrude Hawk, which is like the best chocolate! YUM!!! And don't get me wrong, I love the girls in my unit. But, I'm not even that excited about seeing anyone and living with 9 other girls again. I am just so ready to be done with college life. And I know I know I will probably miss it after a while, but December 12th will be the best day of my life so far I think. I will finally be done with all of this!
I have some stuff to do before my class tonight so I'd better go work on that. Back to the grind!
P.S. this is like one the only pictures I took this weekend...i totally forgot to take lots of pictures! aggghhh!! oh well...i love my dad! we are both crazy dorks!! :) This is us squished in the back seat alllllll weekend!!!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Spring Break is flying by!
Well, since the last time I wrote on here, I officially started Spring Break and now there's only like 5 days of it left! I went up to Bekah's for the weekend this past Friday. It was so much fun! I didn't get to rest much b/c we were up early and late doing all sorts of stuff, but I knew that I would be able to rest this week on campus.
Since Monday, I've been working in admissions from 3-8pm and then just chillin in the Florida sun the rest of the time. It's been a pretty amazing break. I have been kind of lonely in the unit and on campus all by myself. But, sometimes it is nice just to be by yourself and have peace and quiet for a change, ya know?!
Today I have lots to do b/c I'm flying out of the St Pete/Clearwater airport to go visit my family for Easter! My sister and Matt bought me a ticket to fly to their house (where my parents will be) for the weekend and I am so excited! That was SO NICE of them to do that for me. I was a little bummed that I was going to have to stay here alllllll of break, but I was ok with it. But then my sister called me up and asked if that would be something I would like to do and of course I said YES! So today I have to clean the unit b/c I haven't really cleaned cleaned since I've been here...I've wiped up after myself and stuff, but I haven't actually vacuumed the carpet and wiped down the sinks and stuff. I have to pack for the weekend. I have no clue what to pack b/c apparently it's like snowing in Pittsburgh and I'm pretty sure I have zero cold weather clothes here at school with me! It's been like in the 80's! Soooo this could be an interesting weekend haha! Plus I have to work from 3-5, so I have to have everything done by 3. That wouldn't normally seen too hard, but I get distracted so easily! Plus I'm trying to put music on my Zune for the plane ride. Plus I have to go get lunch somewhere and money for parking at the airport. Plus...yadda yadda yadda! :-)
Anyways, I am so excited about this weekend! I'll make sure to take lots of pictures (hopefully if I remember!!!) and maybe put some up of my oh-so-cold spring break experience! Haha! Alright, off to clean myself and then this place!!!
Since Monday, I've been working in admissions from 3-8pm and then just chillin in the Florida sun the rest of the time. It's been a pretty amazing break. I have been kind of lonely in the unit and on campus all by myself. But, sometimes it is nice just to be by yourself and have peace and quiet for a change, ya know?!
Today I have lots to do b/c I'm flying out of the St Pete/Clearwater airport to go visit my family for Easter! My sister and Matt bought me a ticket to fly to their house (where my parents will be) for the weekend and I am so excited! That was SO NICE of them to do that for me. I was a little bummed that I was going to have to stay here alllllll of break, but I was ok with it. But then my sister called me up and asked if that would be something I would like to do and of course I said YES! So today I have to clean the unit b/c I haven't really cleaned cleaned since I've been here...I've wiped up after myself and stuff, but I haven't actually vacuumed the carpet and wiped down the sinks and stuff. I have to pack for the weekend. I have no clue what to pack b/c apparently it's like snowing in Pittsburgh and I'm pretty sure I have zero cold weather clothes here at school with me! It's been like in the 80's! Soooo this could be an interesting weekend haha! Plus I have to work from 3-5, so I have to have everything done by 3. That wouldn't normally seen too hard, but I get distracted so easily! Plus I'm trying to put music on my Zune for the plane ride. Plus I have to go get lunch somewhere and money for parking at the airport. Plus...yadda yadda yadda! :-)
Anyways, I am so excited about this weekend! I'll make sure to take lots of pictures (hopefully if I remember!!!) and maybe put some up of my oh-so-cold spring break experience! Haha! Alright, off to clean myself and then this place!!!
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Countdowns Continue...
Days til Spring Break: 5!!!! Yeah baby! On Friday I will be heading north to tally-town to be with my bestest buddy Baykuh (bekah...that's just a nickname) who I haven't seen since December! I am so totally pumped about that! I know she will probably be tired from work and stuff but it's ok b/c I just want to spend some time with my wonderful friend!
Days til Summer Break: 53!! Wow, it has gone by so stinkin fast! There are 53 days TOTAL. That counts all of spring break and weekends. I can't even believe it! Praise the Lord! That means only 53 more days of living in the dorm without one of my best friends, karyn! Next semester will be peaches and cream when she is here! I am excited, can you tell?
Well, it is somewhat late and I still need to do my devos. I should take advantage of going to bed at a decent hour. But no, I goof off all night and then realize what time it is and decide to go to bed so laaaaate! Oh well. Ok, I will write more next time. It's bedtime for bonzo now!
"I hope you like dancin in the rain..."
Days til Summer Break: 53!! Wow, it has gone by so stinkin fast! There are 53 days TOTAL. That counts all of spring break and weekends. I can't even believe it! Praise the Lord! That means only 53 more days of living in the dorm without one of my best friends, karyn! Next semester will be peaches and cream when she is here! I am excited, can you tell?
Well, it is somewhat late and I still need to do my devos. I should take advantage of going to bed at a decent hour. But no, I goof off all night and then realize what time it is and decide to go to bed so laaaaate! Oh well. Ok, I will write more next time. It's bedtime for bonzo now!
"I hope you like dancin in the rain..."
SO TRUE....LOVE THIS!!!
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Constantly Learning
I do not want to call anyone out on a public blog, but I do want to make some of my feelings known. I've been through a lot this past semester and a half. No, I have not had the heartache of someone very close to me dying (thank the Lord for sparing me of that so far in my life). And no, I have not had a break up of a relationship. But, yes I have had heartache and very down times. I have had a lot of changes take place in my life over the past 6 months. These changes are due to God working in my life to mold me into what He wants me to become.
At the beginning of last semester, everything was hunky-dorey for me. I had my 2 best friends around all the time, I was graduating in May, and life was just falling into place. Over a series of circumstances (some of which I knew of and some of which I didn't), it is second semester and I am without my 2 best friends here and I am not graduating in May. I was bitter and upset for a little bit, but God really scooped me up in His loving arms and taught me about His perfect planning for our lives and how it is not our plan that matters, but His. That was the biggest lesson I've learned this year.
Now on the subject of friends. I am a very friend-oriented person. I do not have a lot of friends. I don't even like to have a lot of friends. I'm the type of person that likes to have 2 or 3 friends that are really really close to me. That is how I've been all my life, and try as I may, I don't think that will ever change. For the past 3 and 1/2 years, I've had my core group of friends. Granted, some of them have come and gone but my 2 girls and me have been together since the beginning. It was very hard for me to come back to school this semester and not have them here. It really was of God that they are not here anymore. I had to rely on God to be my best friend. It was no longer the unit upstairs that I would run to when I had a problem, but to Him. I love my girls to death, but even good, Godly friends can get in the way of our relationship with the only friend we really need. God gives and He takes away. Blessed be the name of the LORD! Not that I don't talk to Karyn and Bekah all the time or at least message them or something, but with them not being here, I've been able to rely on God.
With that said, I have been evaluating myself and how I choose friends and what I want in a friend. Because basically, I had no one to hang out with. So I started hanging out with new people, which I don't enjoy but I figured it necessary. I absolutely loved the way the Bekah and Karyn and I could just hang out and not be doing anything at all and still be comfortable in each others' presence and still have a blast! I definitely wanted Godly friends. I want friends that will build me up and not criticize me. I want friends that can tell me exactly what they are thinking. I want friends that I can have fun with. I want friends that are chill. I want friends that are respectful of me and I of them. I want friends that have servants hearts. I want friends that want so desperately to do God's will. I want friends that think with their own minds. I don't want my friends to be brainwashed by what's around them. I want my friends to laugh....out loud....and not care who hears. I want my friends to have spontaneous dance parties, or spontaneous anything for that matter. I want my friends to be people I can go to with my problems and know that they will rebuke me, but will do so lovingly and not rat me out. In some of the people that I hung out with, I found many opposites of these things. I did not feel like I could talk openly with people. I felt like I always had to be proper or I would get yelled at. But some other people that I hung out with had so many of these qualities, it scares me.
I know I'm rambling, but the main thing I want to say is....yes, I have changed. God is the one who changed me. I am no longer in a bubble. I am going to expand my horizons. I am going to make my own choices (not that I didn't before, but I kind of made choices for the best of "the group"). Now I'm kind of a loner. God is now my best friend. And if you don't like me, I will tell you to feel free to tell me so. I will take your criticism, evaluate my heart, and see if there is something I need to change. But, before you do so, I challenge you to evaluate your own heart, as we all should be doing constantly.
Again, I'm rambling and it's really hard for me to put my thoughts into words. SOOOOOO the end! :-)
At the beginning of last semester, everything was hunky-dorey for me. I had my 2 best friends around all the time, I was graduating in May, and life was just falling into place. Over a series of circumstances (some of which I knew of and some of which I didn't), it is second semester and I am without my 2 best friends here and I am not graduating in May. I was bitter and upset for a little bit, but God really scooped me up in His loving arms and taught me about His perfect planning for our lives and how it is not our plan that matters, but His. That was the biggest lesson I've learned this year.
Now on the subject of friends. I am a very friend-oriented person. I do not have a lot of friends. I don't even like to have a lot of friends. I'm the type of person that likes to have 2 or 3 friends that are really really close to me. That is how I've been all my life, and try as I may, I don't think that will ever change. For the past 3 and 1/2 years, I've had my core group of friends. Granted, some of them have come and gone but my 2 girls and me have been together since the beginning. It was very hard for me to come back to school this semester and not have them here. It really was of God that they are not here anymore. I had to rely on God to be my best friend. It was no longer the unit upstairs that I would run to when I had a problem, but to Him. I love my girls to death, but even good, Godly friends can get in the way of our relationship with the only friend we really need. God gives and He takes away. Blessed be the name of the LORD! Not that I don't talk to Karyn and Bekah all the time or at least message them or something, but with them not being here, I've been able to rely on God.
With that said, I have been evaluating myself and how I choose friends and what I want in a friend. Because basically, I had no one to hang out with. So I started hanging out with new people, which I don't enjoy but I figured it necessary. I absolutely loved the way the Bekah and Karyn and I could just hang out and not be doing anything at all and still be comfortable in each others' presence and still have a blast! I definitely wanted Godly friends. I want friends that will build me up and not criticize me. I want friends that can tell me exactly what they are thinking. I want friends that I can have fun with. I want friends that are chill. I want friends that are respectful of me and I of them. I want friends that have servants hearts. I want friends that want so desperately to do God's will. I want friends that think with their own minds. I don't want my friends to be brainwashed by what's around them. I want my friends to laugh....out loud....and not care who hears. I want my friends to have spontaneous dance parties, or spontaneous anything for that matter. I want my friends to be people I can go to with my problems and know that they will rebuke me, but will do so lovingly and not rat me out. In some of the people that I hung out with, I found many opposites of these things. I did not feel like I could talk openly with people. I felt like I always had to be proper or I would get yelled at. But some other people that I hung out with had so many of these qualities, it scares me.
I know I'm rambling, but the main thing I want to say is....yes, I have changed. God is the one who changed me. I am no longer in a bubble. I am going to expand my horizons. I am going to make my own choices (not that I didn't before, but I kind of made choices for the best of "the group"). Now I'm kind of a loner. God is now my best friend. And if you don't like me, I will tell you to feel free to tell me so. I will take your criticism, evaluate my heart, and see if there is something I need to change. But, before you do so, I challenge you to evaluate your own heart, as we all should be doing constantly.
Again, I'm rambling and it's really hard for me to put my thoughts into words. SOOOOOO the end! :-)
Friday, February 22, 2008
Official Countdowns have begun...
Official Countdowns...
3 Weeks until Spring Break!!!! (I have torn feelings about Spring Break. First I am sad because I won't be going home. I miss my parents so much. But, I decided to hopefully save them/me some money. Second, I am happy because I get to spend my break in Florida!!! I haven't had much time to spend at the beach and just bumming around this place. I am so excited to actually be able to do whatever I want pretty much for a week and a half. I am planning on going up to Tally-town to see my best friend who I miss so much for a weekend. Then I am staying with my friend Rachel from freshman year. Her dad lives in Tampa so I will stay with them for the rest of the time probably. yay!)
10 Weeks until the End of the Semester!!! Holy stinkin' cow I can't believe how fast this time is flying! I love it!
So just a quick preview of my weekend, which I think will be turing out even better than last weekend....I have spring soccer this afternoon from 4-5pm. Then Lauren, Kristin, and I are going to this mall we have newly discovered that is fantastic! We are going to get dinner, do some window shopping, just chill and try crazy stuff on and illegally take pictures! Haha it's so dumb that they don't let you take pictures in stores. I'm not like some fashion designer that's going to steal their designs or something! Then the plan is to come back to school and I am going to take a nap before tonight. Tonight is the semi-annual dodgeball tournament that starts at midnight. I usually go and watch the whole thing that lasts til like 3am. But this time I wasn't going to go because I have a race in the morning at 7. Well, the girls' basketball team is forming a dodgeball team and I really want to support my roommate so I at least want to go for an hour or so. So I will take a nap and then get up and go. Then, yes I am running again in the morning! I am so excited! It's only 5 miles so that should be a nice run for me. I am hoping to do it in a good time too! My Saturday daytime plans are up the the air...depending on weather: beach or baseball game. We'll see. Then Saturday night I'm going over to Mel's house in Lakeland and hangin out with her and Lauren for the rest of the weekend. YAY!
Oh and somewhere in there I will be fitting homework...hopefully... ;-)
3 Weeks until Spring Break!!!! (I have torn feelings about Spring Break. First I am sad because I won't be going home. I miss my parents so much. But, I decided to hopefully save them/me some money. Second, I am happy because I get to spend my break in Florida!!! I haven't had much time to spend at the beach and just bumming around this place. I am so excited to actually be able to do whatever I want pretty much for a week and a half. I am planning on going up to Tally-town to see my best friend who I miss so much for a weekend. Then I am staying with my friend Rachel from freshman year. Her dad lives in Tampa so I will stay with them for the rest of the time probably. yay!)
10 Weeks until the End of the Semester!!! Holy stinkin' cow I can't believe how fast this time is flying! I love it!
So just a quick preview of my weekend, which I think will be turing out even better than last weekend....I have spring soccer this afternoon from 4-5pm. Then Lauren, Kristin, and I are going to this mall we have newly discovered that is fantastic! We are going to get dinner, do some window shopping, just chill and try crazy stuff on and illegally take pictures! Haha it's so dumb that they don't let you take pictures in stores. I'm not like some fashion designer that's going to steal their designs or something! Then the plan is to come back to school and I am going to take a nap before tonight. Tonight is the semi-annual dodgeball tournament that starts at midnight. I usually go and watch the whole thing that lasts til like 3am. But this time I wasn't going to go because I have a race in the morning at 7. Well, the girls' basketball team is forming a dodgeball team and I really want to support my roommate so I at least want to go for an hour or so. So I will take a nap and then get up and go. Then, yes I am running again in the morning! I am so excited! It's only 5 miles so that should be a nice run for me. I am hoping to do it in a good time too! My Saturday daytime plans are up the the air...depending on weather: beach or baseball game. We'll see. Then Saturday night I'm going over to Mel's house in Lakeland and hangin out with her and Lauren for the rest of the weekend. YAY!
Oh and somewhere in there I will be fitting homework...hopefully... ;-)
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Wonderful Weekend
This weekend actually turned out to be a pretty fun time, considering I thought it was going to be absolutely boring. Well actually, Friday was pretty much a bust, but Saturday-Monday was great!
I went to bed so early Friday night because I was bored. Loser, I know. But, since I went to bed so early, I got up early. I love getting up early here on Saturdays because there is absolutely nobody around. The weather is usually a little cool and campus and my unit are silent. I love it. So I got up at 7:30ish and got ready and went out shopping to Target and Ross. It was nice to just go out by myself and actually hear myself think. Brunch was good and then I socialized with some of the girls for a while. We painted our nails and played the Wii. At 3ish Dobbs, Caitlin, and I went over to the baseball game. It was the most beautiful day out! We got Chipotle for dinner, which was pretty good except the chicken was so spicy and I do not like anything spicy at ALL! Then the plan was for me was just to hang out all night and maybe go to bed early again (lol) but the girls convinced me to be on their team for "the Amazing Race" game that one of the Greeks was putting on. So Saturday night from 8-11 we raced around clearwater and surrounding areas doing embarrassing stunts and capturing it all on tape for everyone to watch when we got back. We didn't end up winning but it was so much fun and I'm glad they talked me into it.
Sunday morning was not so great. I woke up with a pounding headache. I was so bummed b/c I wanted to go to church so bad, but I just wasn't up for it. So I slept and took some drugs and pretty much got rid of the headache by the afternoon. Night church was good...it was a missionary and his wife who are planning on going to Siberia. He was a really good speaker.
Yesterday (Monday) wouldn't have been that great except my roommates agreed to come with me to this mall that's kind of far away so I could go to the Dick's Sporting Goods store there. It was like a mini road trip and I had a blast! So many funny things happened plus I got new running shoes that I desperately needed! My poor feet!!! So my new shoes are supposed to be really good support and such...and also they are prettttyyyyy :-)
And I'm really excited that we found that mall b/c it was amazing! We didn't have time to walk around and window shop much yesterday b/c Lauren had to get back for bball, but I think on Friday afternoon/evening we are going to have another roommate outing to the mall and actually enjoy the whole mall this time! There is a restaurant there called Rice that we really want to eat at too!
Alright, well I guess I should go be productive or something! Happy Tuesday!!!
I went to bed so early Friday night because I was bored. Loser, I know. But, since I went to bed so early, I got up early. I love getting up early here on Saturdays because there is absolutely nobody around. The weather is usually a little cool and campus and my unit are silent. I love it. So I got up at 7:30ish and got ready and went out shopping to Target and Ross. It was nice to just go out by myself and actually hear myself think. Brunch was good and then I socialized with some of the girls for a while. We painted our nails and played the Wii. At 3ish Dobbs, Caitlin, and I went over to the baseball game. It was the most beautiful day out! We got Chipotle for dinner, which was pretty good except the chicken was so spicy and I do not like anything spicy at ALL! Then the plan was for me was just to hang out all night and maybe go to bed early again (lol) but the girls convinced me to be on their team for "the Amazing Race" game that one of the Greeks was putting on. So Saturday night from 8-11 we raced around clearwater and surrounding areas doing embarrassing stunts and capturing it all on tape for everyone to watch when we got back. We didn't end up winning but it was so much fun and I'm glad they talked me into it.
Sunday morning was not so great. I woke up with a pounding headache. I was so bummed b/c I wanted to go to church so bad, but I just wasn't up for it. So I slept and took some drugs and pretty much got rid of the headache by the afternoon. Night church was good...it was a missionary and his wife who are planning on going to Siberia. He was a really good speaker.
Yesterday (Monday) wouldn't have been that great except my roommates agreed to come with me to this mall that's kind of far away so I could go to the Dick's Sporting Goods store there. It was like a mini road trip and I had a blast! So many funny things happened plus I got new running shoes that I desperately needed! My poor feet!!! So my new shoes are supposed to be really good support and such...and also they are prettttyyyyy :-)
And I'm really excited that we found that mall b/c it was amazing! We didn't have time to walk around and window shop much yesterday b/c Lauren had to get back for bball, but I think on Friday afternoon/evening we are going to have another roommate outing to the mall and actually enjoy the whole mall this time! There is a restaurant there called Rice that we really want to eat at too!
Alright, well I guess I should go be productive or something! Happy Tuesday!!!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Missions
If you think about it, pray for me. I need it desperately. These past couple weeks, God has been bombarding my heart with a burden for missions. Every time in the past that there has been someone speaking on missions, I think oh here we go again and effectively tune them out. But God has been using, chapel, church, and wednesday evening campus prayer meeting to soften my heart and make it ache for missions. I don't know what this all means...Am I supposed to just go on a short missions trip? Should I use my teaching degree and teach in a foreign country? Should I just give up everything I've worked so hard for for 4 years and go be a missionary? I have no clue! I need guidance over the next year big time to know what I should be doing for the Lord. I am excited, but scared to see where God will be taking me!!!
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Happy February!
Well it's hard to believe, but it is, in fact, February! Yay! Not that anything exciting happens this month, but it just means we're that much closer to the summer! School is going pretty good. I have 2 tests today, which is not too exciting, but that's alright. I guess it's what I signed up for, right?
I am getting nervous about my 15k on Saturday. I've set some goals for myself:
GOAL #1 - Finish!!! This may seem dumb, but seriously...it's a good goal
GOAL #2 - Finish in between 80-90 minutes. I'd really like to finish somewhere between 80-85 minutes, but I need to make my goals reasonable and attainable. SO..that's that.
I've really been thankful for the good weather here recently. It's at that stage where it's not too hot yet, but warm enough that it's warmer outside than it is inside, which I love! It's been high 70's which is perfect! I went to the beach Saturday. It was chilly because the wind was blowing a little. But, I still got some good sun! I pretty much lost all my tan from soccer, so it's nice to have a little color again!
I've been extremely excited about what God has for my future lately. I don't even know what it is and I'm excited! Call me crazy, but who cares! I know for a fact that God is going to use my life to honor himself and that's so cool!!! Sometimes I can't just help but physically smile because of what God is doing in my life and how powerful He is...
I am getting nervous about my 15k on Saturday. I've set some goals for myself:
GOAL #1 - Finish!!! This may seem dumb, but seriously...it's a good goal
GOAL #2 - Finish in between 80-90 minutes. I'd really like to finish somewhere between 80-85 minutes, but I need to make my goals reasonable and attainable. SO..that's that.
I've really been thankful for the good weather here recently. It's at that stage where it's not too hot yet, but warm enough that it's warmer outside than it is inside, which I love! It's been high 70's which is perfect! I went to the beach Saturday. It was chilly because the wind was blowing a little. But, I still got some good sun! I pretty much lost all my tan from soccer, so it's nice to have a little color again!
I've been extremely excited about what God has for my future lately. I don't even know what it is and I'm excited! Call me crazy, but who cares! I know for a fact that God is going to use my life to honor himself and that's so cool!!! Sometimes I can't just help but physically smile because of what God is doing in my life and how powerful He is...
Saturday, January 26, 2008
"Springtime"-ish weather and bored out of my mind...
So, I guess Spring has officially started in the quiet little village of Clearwater, Florida. Haha...quiet little village yeah right! :-) But, it's rainy and kind of mild temperatures so that's good. I do wish it was a little warmer and sunnier b/c I've been itching to go to the beach. I pretty much lost my soccer tan booo! :-( I guess I'm never satisfied though, huh?
I am enjoying my last semester of classes. It is weird thinking that I will be back here yet again in August. I suppose that God just wanted me to be able to enjoy August-December weather in Florida just one more time!!! Thanks! Haha! I am only taking 12 credits, though, so I do get bored easily. But I am looooving my history classes. They are a nice change of pace from my education and exercise sport science classes. It's nice to not be completely bogged down all the time with stuff. I am now working in the admissions office at school. It's only 6 hours per week, but every little bit helps. Plus, I've found that I really do enjoy office work, like I always thought I would!
I'm getting really excited b/c I am running in a 15k (that's 10 miles) on Saturday, Feb. 9th. Today I am up to 7 miles. That's the most I've ever run in a single stretch. I had to run it on the treadmill (which I don't like), but I was so proud of myself! Running has become a big hobby of mine that I enjoy so much! Hopefully next Saturday I will be able to do 9 miles. If I can do 9 then, I think that 10 the next Saturday will be alright! I love that I now have another hobby that benefits me so much! I do not want to be fat or have heart problems or so many other problems that inactivity can lead to when I'm old (cancer, blood pressure, stress, etc) It is so much better to get active while you are young rather than wait until you're old and complain about how fat you are!
Today I had the thought (as I have before), what the heck am I doing with my life? What am I going to do after graduation in December? I'm not getting engaged or married or having kids or anything. What am I going to dooooo? Then I laughed to myself and thought, "Duh! God knows exactly what I'm going to do! Whose hands would be better to leave my life in than His!" And then I started reminding myself of all the things I have been thinking about for a while now...I've been thinking about maybe going to Hawaii to teach for anywhere between a semester and 2 years. I've been thinking about eventually wanting to do missions. I would love to use my sports and music talents in missions, but even if I didn't have that opporunity, I've just been really praying about getting involved in missions and I know it has to be easier to do that sort of stuff when you're single. I'm totally ready to graduate in LESS THAN A YEAR(!!!) and see where God takes me! It's so exciting!
I am enjoying my last semester of classes. It is weird thinking that I will be back here yet again in August. I suppose that God just wanted me to be able to enjoy August-December weather in Florida just one more time!!! Thanks! Haha! I am only taking 12 credits, though, so I do get bored easily. But I am looooving my history classes. They are a nice change of pace from my education and exercise sport science classes. It's nice to not be completely bogged down all the time with stuff. I am now working in the admissions office at school. It's only 6 hours per week, but every little bit helps. Plus, I've found that I really do enjoy office work, like I always thought I would!
I'm getting really excited b/c I am running in a 15k (that's 10 miles) on Saturday, Feb. 9th. Today I am up to 7 miles. That's the most I've ever run in a single stretch. I had to run it on the treadmill (which I don't like), but I was so proud of myself! Running has become a big hobby of mine that I enjoy so much! Hopefully next Saturday I will be able to do 9 miles. If I can do 9 then, I think that 10 the next Saturday will be alright! I love that I now have another hobby that benefits me so much! I do not want to be fat or have heart problems or so many other problems that inactivity can lead to when I'm old (cancer, blood pressure, stress, etc) It is so much better to get active while you are young rather than wait until you're old and complain about how fat you are!
Today I had the thought (as I have before), what the heck am I doing with my life? What am I going to do after graduation in December? I'm not getting engaged or married or having kids or anything. What am I going to dooooo? Then I laughed to myself and thought, "Duh! God knows exactly what I'm going to do! Whose hands would be better to leave my life in than His!" And then I started reminding myself of all the things I have been thinking about for a while now...I've been thinking about maybe going to Hawaii to teach for anywhere between a semester and 2 years. I've been thinking about eventually wanting to do missions. I would love to use my sports and music talents in missions, but even if I didn't have that opporunity, I've just been really praying about getting involved in missions and I know it has to be easier to do that sort of stuff when you're single. I'm totally ready to graduate in LESS THAN A YEAR(!!!) and see where God takes me! It's so exciting!
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