Now, I know this is very unconventional of me, but I am going to post for the second time in one day. The reason that I'm doing this is only because I feel that I need vent a little bit about something. I don't even know who all reads this and I know it's more than just the one person that comments on here, so I hope if you are reading this that you don't get offended or anything...not that I think anyone would...but whatever!
ANYWAYS, I value my friendships. I am someone who I either take you or leave you. I put a lot of my energy into keeping up the friendships that I hold dear to my heart. Whenever I get a new friend, I am a person who (maybe to my own loss) jumps full force into cultivating a relationship with that person. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I take friendship very seriously. I try my hardest to be someone's friend through the good and the bad.
This leads me to my point. I welcome my friends with open arms to come to me when they are struggling with something in their life. I am always always always willing to offer the best advice that I can and to pray for a friend. I enjoy doing that sort of thing. But, I take it really hard when a "friend" comes running to me only when they are going through something or when their life seems a wreck. Then whenever things get better, I'm no longer needed. I don't like what I have named, "stormy-weather friends". When things get bad they come running to me for help, but when things are good I barely hear from them. It hurts. My heart literally hurts. As I said before, I value relationships so deeply that when someone else doesn't value their friendship with me as much as I do with them, my heart breaks a little.
I'm probably just being selfish, but I felt like I needed to put that out there even if not anyone really reads this. I miss my real friends....I miss those who stick up for me no matter what. I miss those who I don't have to say a word and they already know what I am thinking. I miss that. Desperately.
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Hey girl! Sorry for the belated response to your question about the friend's list. I had to go through and figure it out again for myself! All you do is sign in, go to "layout" and then click the "add a page element" tab. You can then add a list with links in it. I hope this helps!
I'm so sorry that you're struggling with friendships. Believe me, I REALLY have issues with these things too. I have a wonderful sister and sister-in-law and my husband is the best friend I could have ever dreamed of having, but apart from these select few people, I don't really feel like I have someone who isn't a "stormy weather friend" or a genuine friend. It's so rough because I crave that and want that so bad. Sometimes it's nice to have someone to call up and go to dinner with. Ya know?
So, all that to say I'm really sorry that you're hurting. Thanks for sharing your heart. Hang in there!
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