He's All I Need

We all have needs in life. We need oxygen. We need food and water. We need a shelter to protect us from the weather. We need clothing. These are all necessities. I find myself falling into the trap of turning "I want" into "I need". Now it's not, "I want that ice cream". It's "I neeeeed that ice cream". Haha! Of course, that's a silly example. But here's a more serious one. I've turned "I want relationships" into "I need relationships". And I'm not just talking about a guy/girl relationship. I'm talking everything.
In college, I could define myself by who my friends were. They were always there. I had that tight core group of friends that I would be with pretty much 24 hours a day. At the start of the Spring '08 semester, I no longer had 2 of my best friends at school with me. I learned [or thought I learned, but apparently not completely] that Jesus Christ should be my closest friend, not only when I am lonely, but also when I have lots of friends around. It was knowing that He was always going to be with me that got me through those first few weeks of being a Senior with no super close friends. And I think because I surrendered my situation to Him and gave Him free reign to be my best friend, He opened doors and opportunities for me to develop new relationships with people I thought least likely that I would become close with.
Now, I am home. Things here are so very much different than being at Clearwater. It's just me and my parents. I go to church and there's really nobody there my age to be with. I have no job. I have a few friends that live closeby but schedules don't usually seem to work out. I have found myself bemoaning my relationship situation the past couple weeks. I sit here thinking, "I am friendly but...I have no friends" or "I am so lonely".
I can't seem to get it through my thick head that Jesus has always been, is, and will always be my BEST friend. He loves me more than an amazing friend would love me. He loves me more than a boyfriend would love me. He loves me more than the most loving husband loves his wife. It is sadly overwhelming as I sit here and think that He is kind of like a "back burner" idea that I turn to when everything else fails. He should be the one most forward in my head at all times because He is the most important thing in my life. He loves me so much and is there with open arms and a listening ear. Why don't I run to Him?
It reminds me of the Bethany Dillon song, "All I Need". A line in the song says, "There's a fire in my bones, I'm not afraid to go alone. You're all I need". I shouldn't be afraid or upset about being alone or going anywhere alone. I'm never alone. Jesus Christ is all I need. Period.

"All I Need"

When the day is done
And there's no one else around
While I'm lying here in bed
You're in my heart, You're in my head
You're all I need, You're all I need
There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You're the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear

You are all I need when I'm surrounded
You are all I need if I'm by myself
You fill me when I'm empty
There is nothing else
You're all I need

When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There's a fire in my bones
I'm not afraid to go alone
You're all I need
You're all I need
The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You're still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You're all I need
You're all I need

I'm drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You