Some days I just feel like the scum of the earth. And, in all reality, that's what we all are. Yes, I am saved. But I wish sometimes that after a person gets saved, they never had to deal with sin again. It just seems like I can't get away from it. One day after another I find myself confessing. I don't know why God loves me so much, but I know he does. I cannot fathom the depth of His love to love a sinner like me. I am almost in tears as I write this because that love He has is so immense it just overwhelms me. I am saddened to realize that the sins I commit every day dissappoint God so much. They hurt him like a wife hurts her husband by committing adultry. I can't even imagine. I just can't.
In lighter news, my babysitting went well. Needless to say, I was extremely worn out after a day and a half with a 3 year old. I can't imagine being a parent. How tiring! But, hopefully I will get to experience that someday! I'm already always exhausted in college...why not just have kids too! Eh, but I guess I need to get married first sooooo...haha....
Well, I'm leaving for school in 10 days. I'm excited! It's finally my Senior year that I have been waiting for forever. I will finally be an "adult" with a real job after this year. I'm hoping and praying that God will do great things in my life this year. I know He will. I am going to try to make prayer my main focus. It's always hard with how busy I am at school, but that is one of my goals.
I had today off or work, but I have to go in tomorrow, so I'd better get some sleep. Goodnight.
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