In the summertime when the weather is.....cold...

Well, I decided to make a blog here because xanga is pretty much dead (even though I still get on it occasionally) and also I just like this site a lot. It seems like a good one. Also, it helps me keep in touch with even more people.

It's been quite chilly this weekend and I don't really like it!!!! It's the summertime for cryin out loud! Or....almost the summertime, anyways....

I am home from school. I just finished my Junior year at Clearwater. It was, to date, the most trying semester of my college career. There were multiple times that I just wanted to quit. I'm not a big quitter and I've never felt like that about school before. It seemed like there was no reason to stay at school and get pounded like I was. It didn't really seem worth it to me. But, I know that is where God wants me. I'm somebody who likes things told to me straight up. Just give me the facts without all the extras and I'm good to go. Sometimes I wish God would just say something like, "this is where I want you" or "that's not where I want you" or "you should do such-and-such". But, He hasnt chosen to communicate with us in that way. Through prayer and stuff like that and also encouragement from people I respect, I stuck out the semester. Right at the moment, I'm not super-excited for August, but I'm sure I'll get there eventually. I've always wondered if I shouldn't have gone to school and just worked. Or if I should have gone to BBC, which was an option way back when. Or if I should have gone somewhere else to school, because a lot of times, many other options look so much more appealing. But, when I find myself questioning where I am, I remember that God has me where I am for a purpose. Already, in the 3 years I've been at school, I've learned so much about God and about my relationship with Him. I've figured out more about what I believe and what I don't believe. I've met people who have changed my life. Now, I'm sure that if I were somewhere else, those things may have taken place at some point, but God specifically placed me where I am to "impact eternity" (haha that's clearwater's slogan thing and normally it makes me laugh, but I really like it now....).

Speaking of communicating with God, even though we don't hear Him talking, He does communicate with us. Us little annoying people. That's the amazing thing! He is the ALMIGHTY God who created the universe and He wants to have a relationship with me! It's just so (and pardon the word, but for lack of a better one which I cannot even begin to express) cool! I know my relationship with Him hasn't been the greatest. I get "busy". Or what I think is busy, and slack off on my end. But He is always waiting there for me, ready to teach me what He has for me.

I've had some problems with being content lately. It's like, I'm so focused on myself and not God, that I start thinking about all the things I don't have instead of thanking God for all the things I do have. I was actually driving down the road the other day pouting to myself about something I'm without, and I had the radio on. Now, normally I don't listen to the speakers on the radio, but some guy came on and was talking about contentedness. It was like he knew what I was thinking and told me right there that I was wrong. It was definitely a God thing and I was humbled. This past week I've been trying to make a conscious effort to, when I start thinking about stuff that I don't have, to start thanking God for what I do have and what He has blessed me with. So I think everytime I write on here (we'll see how often that is...), I will be listing a few things that I have come up with to be thankful for. They will be things that have stemmed from my complaints so they may seem odd, but it's ok haha :) [see, i complained about the weather earlier in the post...just goes to show you how easy it is...]

I hope you all have a blessed day and thank God for something today!
Alissa Kay


I THANK GOD FOR....
-feet so i can walk
-a house
-the ability to love a special someone when the time comes
-weather/seasons...it's not always the same!